On January 23, 2021, my father went to his reward. That was three years and one day after my mother. Let’s talk about what that means for DFL.
I had mentioned that my father had cancer in my New Years livestream. I talked about how that was effecting me mentally and how it might impact DFL in the short term. Then he took a rapid turn for the worse and passed away.
In case you didn’t realize, I batch produce videos. Writing and shooting them in groups. So I had videos recorded and to my editor before I left to see Dad one last time. The last one got released the day after he passed, which I can tell you would not have happened if it hadn’t been recorded weeks before.
Since then I haven’t been able to get my head back into writing and recording distinction videos. It still isn’t there, hence this video.
Truth is, I hadn’t expected it to affect me this much, and at such a deep level. I also had expected to be able to muscle through or find some new cool way of getting myself to do stuff I didn’t want to do.
Well, that hasn’t happened yet. So DFL is going on a hiatus. Not sure for how long, but I promise I will come back and talk to you again in the near future. I’ve got some cool ideas to take the channel in a different direction, but nothing is decided yet.
And the truth is it may not really come back. I’ve been doing this for well over a year and the growth and impact hasn’t been what I expected. But if I decide that, then I will make a goodbye video.
Here is a bit of a distinction for you. Don’t make big, final decisions when in an emotional crisis. The death of a loved one or a relationship doesn’t give you the best mental state for making decisions.
This is why I won’t decide to quit DFL right now. Instead, I will put it on hold until I can make decisions I am confident in.